Following my recent post on living a fearless life, part of the exercise is for me to explore what my fears are and as positive, loving, outgoing and confident as I am. I realized that with all the society’s norms and countless almost useless dating books and TV series shaped me to be a very protected person.
People tell you to love yet they tell you not to love too much because you need to love yourself first so I build up guards so high that it’s almost impossible to reach, perhaps too high and I’m not the only one. Some of my friends and family, do the same, it’s almost like this has become normal, for us to give restrictions to the very concept of love. I realized then and there that maybe all these wrong relationships, falling for emotionally unavailable men who provide me with an on-off attention was out of my own insecurity and fear of having something real. Continue reading
When did we stop believing in miracles? Was it when we started being a full-time labour who works 12 hours a day or was it when we occasionally run into few road bumps? Miracle, one little word with such a big meaning and influence. Looking back at my own life, I realized how persistent I can be with my believes. I remember as a child, I would pray every night for a little brother, every single night until one day well, I kinda stopped. I let go and let the Universe takes its own course. One doctor after another told my mum that she couldn’t have a child anymore but when I was 15 years old, I had a brother. He’s a miracle child, he’s a miracle in my life, he’s basically a living proof that miracles do exist.
Every time I needed a little reminder on miracles, I would constantly look back at this and nudge myself that this world is really full of possibilities, opportunities and it is limitless. Everything is possible and anything can happen if I put a full faith to what I believe and occasionally, miracles do come knocking on my door. Just when I thought about going full-time freelancing and pursuing my dreams, there are already unexpected phone calls and projects that is waiting for me to take on. So I seriously wonder, when did I ever pause believing in miracles when everything that I ever wanted and currently desire is on my way.
Believe in miracles, they are as real as we are and most important of all, it is the very seed of our dreams. I believe in miracles and I am one.